Believing gets harder every day. When you’ve asked for so little only to get nothing it’s almost impossible, especially when everyone around you swears things will get better if you just pray. I’ve tried and found nothing. If he is up there (which I still haven’t ruled out) I kind of feel like he is pissed off at me or something. What have I done? Why do I have to feel like this? Why am I on the wrong end of everything lately?

This is a plea for direction, a cry out for guidance in my life. A crutch. I’m screaming inside, and out as of lately.