I could watch the sun come up over the city soon, but I think it would just make me feel terrible about being up this late again. It’s not being awake that really bothers me… it’s being up all night alone again. I hate seeing the sun come through my windows when I’m laying in bed trying to calm myself down enough to fall asleep. The dull orange glow of a streetlight is all I have keeping me company anymore, I know it will be there every night, it’s the only thing I can count on. I don’t know if am looking for anything to stick around, someone once in a while would be fine, and to be honest I don’t know if I could handle someone sticking around right now. A body next to me while I fall asleep. A good morning from a tired, but upbeat voice. That’s what I’m looking for once in a while, just something to remind me life isn’t always this stale.